Ever have a moment (or a bunch of 'em) that you feel you need to preserve in amber so you won't forget, be them moments of joy, grief, epiphany, etc.?
Don't get your hopes up for anything overly dramatic like divorce (happily married) or additional children (content). But over the last year or so, God has been speaking to me. Whispering, even. I've had moments where I have looked up and said "OK, God, I hear you already," but then I go right back to what I was doing. Sometimes it's hard to differentiate your own thoughts from God's voice, but what I have learned this past week is that when God is speaking and you're not listening, He will eventually start screaming.
He is screaming at me, and I am listening now. I need a little time, but I am listening. My fear is that in that time, amidst the hustle and bustle of my life, I will quit listening.
If half a year or so rolls around, and I'm still rockin' and rollin' at the same pace, please, dear blog reader, pull out this virtual amber and remind me. I need to remember.
2 comments:
He's screaming at me, too. Are you still listening? I'm trying to... but the stuff he's telling me doesn't seem to be easy for me to do! I keep telling myself I don't know how to do it, or I'm not sure about the best way to do it, but I think that's just an avoidance maneuver.
I am...but it really is harder right now. 4 months till I believe we pull the plug on what we discussed. I still talk about it in terms of "I think" I am going to do this, and I have to keep reminding myself it's right. Thanks for the reminder! It's actually taken a few conversations similar to ours for it to make sense to me. I hope you can make sense of your callings as well, but like I said, you can only avoid it for so long!
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